Queerying Adam, The Man Who Became Sebastian Rivers – Part 2

This is Part 2 (of 2 parts) of QueerClick’s exclusive Queerying interview with Sebastian Rivers. Part 1 is here.
How did your life in general change after this event?

I was very depressed for a long time. I would watch the video’s repeatedly, look at everything I had that reminded me of him and “us.” I would often dream about him and then wake up to only realize he wasn’t laying next to me, it had only been a dream and that would instantly make the day difficult to face. I have great family and friends or I wouldn’t have made it through this. I understand depression now and overwhelming grief from loss and it can steal your life. People have two choices, one is to grow, learn and become stronger from it or they lose themselves in torment. After my darkness, I became stronger, blessed to have loved and been loved and a new focus to my life began which is exactly what he would have wanted.

Is that how Sebastian Rivers was born?

All the times he told me I would make a good porn star rang through my head. I needed to change up my life. So I started applying to sites and I initially got one invite to come and audition, I did it, and the site owner didn’t want me. Talk about a serious blow to the ego. I went home head hanging and wondered what was wrong with me. I started hitting the gym and bulking up immediately. RandyBlue contacted me, made me an offer and gave me the name Sebastian. The “Rivers” came into play when I did my first movie stint with Unzipped titled Dirty Jobs produced by Doug Jeffries. They gave me a long list of last names and Rivers was born…HAHA!

What are some fears you have Adam?

Well, as we discussed earlier, I had two major fears as a child. One was fire. I always feared being in a burning house. Once when I was little we had a small stove fire and I froze. I couldn’t move, my dad had to grab me and take me outside. My other fear was this preoccupation I had with the idea that if someone close to me died, I wouldn’t ever be able to handle it. It actually is a strange fear and realization for a small kid, but I always knew my close relationships with family and friends were almost too strong. Like if someone close to me wasn’t happy, then I wasn’t happy. I felt things way too deeply.

So your happiness was dependent upon those around you?

Yes, exactly like I feared that if someone died it would destroy my entire world and I would never recover.

That is a very odd emotional stance for a child. Maybe you were slowly being prepared for dealing with the death of your bf many years later?

Doc, I never really thought of that, but that is very true. Thanks.

Ok, you have to tell the readers about the fear of Spiders, which I witnessed first hand…lol!

Yup HAH it’s true. Not the big spiders, I look at them like small animals, but the little sneaky spiders, those poisonous ones that get you in your homes and you read about people swallowing while they are sleeping. Yes, I confess, it’s true, in the car go figure during an interview a green-creepy spider decides to crawl on me and Doc. had to save me. I was a total wimp. God I hate spiders. HAHA!

You were driving, I wanted to live. I don’t like them either…lol!


Ok Adam, after a fabulous adventure in the mountains we had a great steak dinner and saw Superman Returns. Now I am a long-time fan of Superman and yet, coming out of the movie, you reminded me of myself the first time I ever saw Superman as a child. You were completely in awe!

Oh my God, he is beautiful. Dark hair and dark eyes and those thighs! Yup the perfect man. I loved it. HAHA! Shut up Doc…lol You want him too HAHA! That Superman Bulge holy hell!!

So, what is a typical week like for Adam?

Pretty dull, I get to bed early, go to work, hit the gym, come home do the family thing and that’s it. No superstar status here. On the weekends, when I’m around I hit the clubs with my “boys-the friends.” I love hanging out with my best friend Liz, she is awesome. Typical 23 year old life. Of course I love my Chi Chi, great personality, love her. I sometimes over indulge in my drinking, I’m a Red Bull and vodka guy or my Apple Martini’s. HAHA!

My friend Gaea would love you for the Apple Martini’s. I’ll have to have her make you a batch. She’ll give you a whole-new-love for them.

I’m down with that, but man it only takes one of those suckers to kick me. Gaytini’s…Whew!

You have this fondness for Pineapple…

YUP… HAHA! Anything pineapple. Cakes, pudding, fresh, fried, I don’t care I just love pineapple…

So, what turns Adam on sexually?

Many things!! Dark hair and eyes, a good ass rimming, and someone versatile because I love switching off. If someone puts their ass in my face, that’s all she wrote, I’m all there. HAHA! My favorite thing of all though is kissing. Kissing turns me on more than anything. If you don’t kiss you are no fun. Kissing totally puts me right there and gets my cock going. I also like romance, so lots of cuddling and kissing, but you better cum at the same time I do. I hate cumming and then waiting for someone else to cum. Once I cum, I’m done-finished. HAHA!

What are your hobbies Adam?

I love water sports, NO!! HAHA not those Doc.! I love waterskiing, jet-skiing. I love skiing especially with my parents being in Colorado. White-Water rafting of course you know this because of the rafting trip next month with QC and your buddies which we’ll have a blast on! HAHA ! My mom, her first time rafting in Colorado, she fucking falls in and floats down the river. I was like OMG I’m so embarrassed, but then others fell in so it wasn’t so bad! HAHA Love you mom.

What are your aspirations for the future?

I want to go as far in this industry as I can and then own and run my own company or business, fall in love and be happy. Aww, I know. Even porn models need love. HAHA!

So could you live happily with someone you love if they are poor?

Oh absolutely! I could live in dirt on a Kansas farm if I have love. HAHA!

Wow, you have Superman on the brain…lol!

HAHA, I know right. Poor-farm-Kansas HAHA. Love is the only thing that matters though. You can accomplish anything with love. At my age we tend to crave the materialistic things in life, but that is a generational quality. I‘m smart enough to know that material things break, but love, Doc, love is the gift that keeps on giving.

What do you think of those QC T-shirts?

Perfect fit, love them. They are light so they stay cool and they fit very nicely around the pecs and arms. Thanks for letting me keep one. I really like QC’s idea about having our fans bid on a signed T -shirt we have worn and donating the money to the GLBT community. I mean we have to look out for one another. This is a cool way to give back.

Adam, what makes you click?

Spending a day being interviewed by someone so nice and letting my fans know more about me as a person. Doc, you were really cool paying for my rental car, buying me dinner, taking me to the movie and getting me a room for the night after we ended up spending the day together. 2 AM Doc, we just kept going! HAHA. Thank you. All my fans can catch me on MySpace.

QC and I would like to thank my friend Adam aka Sebastian Rivers for a really cool day and interview. Watch for a 2nd interview at the end of August with Sebastian Rivers who will be joining me and friends on a White-Water rafting trip!
Previously:
Queerying Adam; The Man Who Became Sebastian Rivers of RandyBlue.com (Part 1)