Ask QC: Is Lusting After A Straight Man Worth It?

Dear QC,

There’s this guy, he’s straight, which is painfully obvious. Problem is, I think I might have fallen a bit too much for him. It’s been bugging me for so long. When we first met, he hated me a bit because of my guts and I kinda also disliked him because he tried too much to be somebody.

But that all changed when he and I went with other guys to this retreat. I got to know him better and, after that, we grew to be close friends. This was where the problem started. I kinda began to always look for him in the crowd. Every time I go to school, whenever I see him, from afar, I feel like I’m on cloud nine. I know I love him but this much? It’s scary, that I can say.

What is more fucked up though is that he is the only one I feel this way for. I mean, yes, I check out other guys. There are a lot of hotties in my campus but, of everyone else, he’s the only one I feel comfortable being gay. I don’t even know if I should call it gay because he’s the only one I dream of being a part of. I don’t even get interested whenever I see hot guys, but with him, I want to build my whole life with.

What’s sad is he is scared of homosexuality. It’s not that he hates gays, but I know that he wants to get married to a girl and start a family. What fucking hurts is that we’re growing apart. Even if we were just friends, that would be more than enough for me. I don’t know what to do anymore. He’s my best friend but things don’t go the way we plan them.

Help me, please?

RR

Hi RR and thanks for writing in with your concerns and worries. I guess at some time or other we have all ‘fallen’ for a straight guy? Have any of you been in a similar situation to RR’s? How did you deal with it? If you can help him answer any of these questions and more, or have any other ideas to offer him, then please leave your opinions, experiences, and advice in the QComments section.
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